I hate the body I was born with and I'm hideous on top of... My parents and brother loves me (although they have weird ways of expressing it) and i have friends who love me too. It just sucks to live, and honestly Im sick of it for as long as I can remember. I got an invisible illness that threw me off track for two and a half year.
I was 11 or 12 the first time I thought about taking my life. Two and a half years of suffering that nobody acknowledged or understood. I needed to be able to say that, somewhere, to someone, because there are a great many loving, caring people in my life who would be highly distressed if I said this to them.
Klaus Eberwein, a former Haitian government official who was expected to expose the extent of Clinton Foundation corruption and malpractice next week, has been found dead in Miami. Eberwein was due to appear next Tuesday before the Haitian Senate Ethics and Anti-Corruption Commission where he was widely expected to testify that the Clinton Foundation misappropriated Haiti earthquake donations from international donors.
They were excited about future business plans and were working on opening a Muncheez restaurant in Sunrise, he said.
The Haitian government issued an official notice thanking Eberwein for his service and mourning his untimely death.
But, people only want you not to kill yourself so that they don't feel the same level of pain... I will listen and give advice as best as I can and do not feel like life is worth anymore - or that I am important to anyone in my circle. Suicide is the answer being on disability i need to find a quick cheap way to kill myself. for most of my life so I have thought about it for a long time and I don't see my life will get better.
I inbox my story and people don't believe it, call it horrific, even a "friday the 13th senario" which is rediculous... and Y X and Y are having a conversation and it goes like this: (Answer the questions for yourself too! Y: Yes, I would say that I’m an all round good person, why not! However put a pistol in my hand and give me a choice...use your imagination. I never felt this horrible like I did last night, the whole night I cried, the kind of... I'm not going to go in details because everyone has their reason. I finally tried to deal with some emotions that were a problem, and I was met with the same rude, unsympathetic, responses... I think about the countless number of days ahead of me and I feel trapped. I don't need help, so I understand if that upsets you but I'm going to do it and I just need help doing it properly.
No matter what I do I will never be good enough and I just want to end the enormous... I do not plan on making this post a life story post, but some background I believe... The feeling of sadness rules my life with no remorse, I wake up every morning with feelings of sadness, hopelessness and the thought of death.
I want to die because I cannot stand the pain of being me anymore. There is not one thing that I'm good at and all I seem to do is get in the way. I have felt this way ever since I was thirteen years old.
A further 9.6% ended up with the Haitian government.
The remaining 89.8% – or .4 billion – was funneled to non-Haitian organizations.
Fantasizing about how people would react, how hurt they'd be... Thinking of someone else being in pain because of me. Two and a half years of being labeled as crazy, or lazy, or lying, or attention seeking... And not only do I love them too much to upset them so greatly... Supposedly, one of the most important human needs is intimacy... But nobody will love someone who doesn't love himself. There are times I can't even look at myself because of how pathetic and worthless I've become...languishing in my own misery. Too prideful to speak up yet too scared to set myself free. Everyday I think about committing suicide I was raised with the idea if you're a good person loyal honest and nice set of ventually you will find someone who loves you but these are false pretenses.